My kids kind of did their own thing today.
I was sick in bed.
The kind of sick where you can’t get up and make it work.
The kind of sick where you don’t want to go near anyone because you don’t want them to catch what you have.
My husband had to be at church early today.
So my kids got themselves ready and drove to church.
They were late.
They entertained themselves this afternoon.
This evening, my husband went to an event with my oldest
so they also made their own dinner tonight.
And I had to just let it all be.
I couldn’t help them today.
And I didn’t even have the energy to care or stress about it all.
So I didn’t worry when they weren’t on time,
or feel bad they had to entertain themselves,
and I didn’t feel guilty that they had to make their own dinner.
Sometimes as a mom, you can’t do all the things you want to do for your kids.
And that happens, even when you aren’t sick.
And that is okay.
When you are as sick as I am, or stretched so thin,
you can’t help but just let it be.
But imagine what it would be like if you could just learn to let it go
And let things be as they are,
Without it being a problem.
Without it meaning you’re a bad mom
Without it meaning you’re failing or falling short.
What if you were a good mom anyway?
When you stop and think logically about it, do you believe that you are?
You can start letting go by deciding today, that you are a good mom.
Decide to not let your primitive brain tell if you are a good mom or not.
Decide that you can be a good mom even if you don’t do all the things.
You’re not supposed to be a machine or perfect.
You are human.
Even good moms need breaks.
Stop beating yourself up when things don’t go how you had hoped or if they just plain don’t go well at all.
