This weekend I went to one of my favorite places.
I spent hours in nature and learning and doing things I love.
One of my most favorite things in one of my favorite places.
It was the annual Ropes Course Facilitator Certification.
I go for so many reasons, but the main reason I prioritize it is because every time I go, I learn so much about myself.
It never fails.
This year, I chose to leave early on the second day in order to make it to my son’s soccer game, yet I knew it would still be worth it. And again, I wasn’t disappointed.
Through the different experiences, discussions, teaching and my assisting the instructor, I learned a lot.
When I realized the lesson I was being taught about myself, I was quiet.
I became very introspective.
I haven’t stopped thinking about it since.
I was so sick both Saturday and Sunday and today is the first day I feel able to move and even think about anything. As I pondered on my discoveries, I read through some of my journaling from this year, I was shocked at the moments of clarity and strong belief in myself that I had felt earlier this year and had already forgotten.
I had written with such conviction and energy. And I had already forgotten me…
Forgotten that I am capable…
and that I have been given gifts from God to accomplish what lies before me…
And that is right here with me, every step of the way.
I had forgotten that I am enough, right now, as I am.
And that I love myself and I can improve and do better.
I had already forgotten that I love what I do so much…
Forgotten that I love my life.
I felt both happy and sad realizing this.
With so much noise and distraction and busyness in life it is so easy to lose focus of those things.
It is so easy to be weighed down by the hard things.
And I’m not alone in this.
It becomes your default to be stressed and overwhelmed, feeling inadequate more and more.
You get caught up in all the expectations to fulfill, whether your own or someone else’s.
You run yourself ragged.
You lose the joy.
Forgetting how much you love being a mom,
how much you love yourself and how grateful you are for all that you do.
When was the last time you remembered loving being a mom?
Or have you been too distracted by overwhelm or exhaustion?
by demands or unfinished and endless lists?
I’m so grateful for my reminder this weekend and this morning as I read my journal.
I am reunited with me.
Reminded of me.
My challenge for you is to pause and find the same for yourself.
Remember the things that make you happy about being a mom.
What brings you joy in motherhood?
What makes you smile?
Don’t just remember them.
Write them down.
And then find more ways to live them in your mom life.
I’ll be doing this myself.
I don’t want to lose me and what I love again.
Want to try this with me?
